Monday, December 25, 2006
Sofie pulled her legs up and crossed her arms over them. It was night, and everything was dark and cold and silent in her room. She tried to embrace as much of her self as she can, keeping the cold at bay. Her thoughts were of nothing in particular, nothing important, only a jumble of old memories and happy thoughts, close friends, and sweet dreams sticking out from a pile. She had her PC on. The dull glow of its monitor faintly reflecting on her face. Five minutes ago, she was trying to remember something that she needed to do. She never did remember though. And so she was left with a waiting PC and herself drifting away thinking. Sofie sighed, and she thought she heard her soul do the same.
Prentice_hall: Why so lonely?
A message came up the screen. For a second, Sofie thought she felt her steady heartbeat stop. She read the message slowly, one letter at a time, and frowned slightly at the end. She uncrossed her arms and felt for the keyboard. Sofie typed in a reply.
Cottonmouthgirl: I’m contemplating, not lonely. Lonely are for fools, sir. I’m not.
She smiled and crossed back her arms. She felt like sticking her tongue out and laughing like the silly girl that she was. But the room was too quiet and she felt she’d rather not break the silence for fear that something bad might happen when she does. Something bad always happens when one is enjoying too much. So, she contended herself with slightly smiling at the screen. Besides, thinking made her tired.
Prentice_hall: No. You are lonely. Why?
Sofie frowned again. This is getting to be boring, and annoying. But Sofie realized that she was more annoyed with herself than at whoever was repeating stupid questions on her PC. She was supposed to be busy. She was supposed to be trying to remember what she needed to do so she could start getting them done before other new things needed to be done come up, clutter her head more, and make her forget again. Instead, she was busy thinking why some weirdo was asking her some odd question, and why this sudden feeling in her heart that finding the answer to it was the most important thing she needed to do. Sofie wondered, and everything seemed to feel colder. Sometimes, there are things that needed to be settled first before you can start on anything else. But some things just cannot be settled, not really, and you are left to go on with your life in between closure and moving on. Sofie stared at the monitor. It’s dull glow reflecting on her face.
Cottonmouthgirl: Missing someone.
Sofie read her answer on the screen and smiled. Sometimes, one needs to break things up so that one can see what went wrong. And then, when one is already wiser, one can build up something that is better. Sofie realized as she felt her heart break into pieces, she’s finally starting to get things done. And she laughed at how silly she was, her soft sweet giggles filling up her cold cluttered room.
Prentice_hall: Ah, don’t we all?
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