The hardest part in loosing those you love is not that moment when you are actually loosing them. Not really. I think that is the easiest part. That's because you don’t usually expect those so close to your heart to just go away, just like that. You always had that idea that your love for them will keep them near and safe always, and so when you loose them, you are usually in shock and denial. You fall, with nothing to do but wait for the bottom to hit. You cry and you feel lost, but that was just the beginning. The hardest part comes much much later. It is when you start missing them, and you realize they are never coming back. Not this time.
I miss Dad. However, I try not to stay sad too long at one time. I say, take one pint of sadness a day, because the whole bottle will drown you. If a pint is not enough, take two, and then sleep it off and wait until morning, or thirty minutes before deadline, whichever panics you first.
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